I see myself as Pandora’s box, normal on the outside. But scary and damaged on the inside. But what is the old fable? Never open Pandora’s box.   

Does this mean I’m in a better place well I don’t know? I honestly don’t know where I am, I am just here for now. Am I letting my trauma take over and control my life, no? I am the one in control of my life. I am the only one who is in control of my life. But I am no longer writing in the same book, I’ve closed that book, and there are no more chapters to be written. I am beginning a new book but I can say with no hesitation that it definitely feels different. How, well maybe along the way you will find these answers as I come here to share my feelings. To use this as an outlet for me. Because these are just blank pages and they aren’t brought to life by anyone but me. Only time will tell how this story will unfold…..