Well, it’s back to everyday normal life. It’s been about 5 days since I looked in my Master’s pretty blue eyes. I miss him terribly, the hardest part is the last morning when we have to part ways again for who knows how long. đ We are shooting for spring when we can get back together again. I hope it happens, the situation isn’t an easy one to navigate.
But, I am so very happy I finally got to get together with him and actually spend time with him one on one. Touch him, hold him, KISS him! đ It was needed, my body and soul was craving all those things from him. Being in an LDR is extremely difficult. So when you get these in person moments you treasure them and hope that they get you through until the next time. So I am very grateful that I did get this time with him. It was the most human touch I’ve had in a very long time. We just spent some of the time reaquinting ourselves with one another, being close to each other. Even if it was just feeling the heat radiate from one another. We had some play time and some going out and having fun time.
Sadly though our visits have been cut down again to only 2 full days. That isn’t fair to me or him for that matter but it’s the cards we are dealt right now.
You make a great deal of sacrifices for the people you love. And I love that man with all my heart! I am eagerly awaiting the next time we can get together. Even if it is for a short period of time it’s still worth it to me. Every minute I get to spend with him is a treasured moment.
So here we are once again back in our respective places living our day to day lives. Just waiting for our next moments. Its hard when you first get home and you have all this spare time to think and rehash the time you had with him. You almost beg for vacation to be over so you can get back to work and occupy your thoughts. So here I am sitting at work đ writing this post trying to occupy my thoughts and not mourn the loss of being in his presence. đ
I get home and it’s just me and the 4 walls again. But I am still very grateful for what we do have. So back to every day life and just keep moving forward. I love you all! â¤ď¸ Thanks for reading my post! đ
Whew! It’s been 18 months since you last wrote here, but I was -very- pleased to know that you’ve decided to write again!
Definitely a lot to unpack here.
It has been five days (now more as I write this) since we parted, and even as we were on the phone while you were taking the exit heading South, and I was headed towards the other Interstate that would take me North, even though both of our bellies were full of good food, there was still a large note of melancholy shared. We did manage to have a good visit, and after my 2024 kidney related fiascos, it was well worth it to spend time in your presence again, share good meals, good playtime and even just spending downtime with you in the hotel room was itâs own bit of awesome. When youâre parted from someone that has become an integral part of your life (going on 10 years now!) when youâre finally in their orbit, itâs immense.
LDRs are advanced physics and advanced calculus all rolled up into one. I remember saying after my previous sub and I called it quits, I wasnât going to do an LDR again, it was just too taxing. Then along came you. Itâs been a wild ride, but Iâm fairly sure I would have hung up my whips and been on a different path if you hadnât come along.
The days requirement hasnât been set in stone. It was a suggestion, and itâs part of a longer conversation between myself and Christabel. She gets a say, but she doesnât get the final word. Donât give up hope on the number of days, OR the number of visits. Itâs a work in progress, Pet.
Yes, here we are again. You there and me here. Although with the advent of technology we do have ways of being in touch that in some ways melt away the miles. The new computer you have, webcam and so on will help out. Now that youâve been bitten by the blog bug again, you can put your thoughts here and I can respond to them, just as I do in our daily phone calls and textual messages back and forth. Constant contact. Thatâs something that was very difficult just 30 or so years ago. Imagine if all we had was the mail, and each of us was waiting days or weeks for the next letter to keep us connected. That would be pretty darn taxing, but people back then made it work. So we will too.
I miss your presence too, Pet. I may not mention it, you may question it at times when I make a misstep, when I say âyeah, gonna call you laterâ and then I donât for one reason or another. When Iâm with you, it makes me better. When youâre not here, I miss you. I may itch about messaging you daily, but itâs something that I think of before I go to work, or before I go to bed. âDamn, have to send a good morning message!â or âDamn forgot to say good night!â and I rush to the computer or my phone to send something so you know Iâm thinking of you, and I am. So thereâs that.
There was a moment when we were either down in the basement, or at the hotel and you asked me if I was having a good time. I didnât answer right away, because I had to think about it, and think about what you would say or react if I was honest. In the end it was better TO be honest so I said, no, I wasnât having as good a time as I thought I would. And I said it wasnât your fault, it wasnât anyoneâs fault, it was just the circumstances. Thereâs so many things I want to do, but for one reason or another, theyâre just not feasible, or possible in the current situation.
So I explained it as best I could and if I remember correctly, you got what I was trying to say. The time that weâre gifted is always short. And we try to pack as much as we can into those moments. Then we part, and go back to waiting for the next snippet of time. LDRs are hard. But itâs still a relationship, and it requires nurturing or there will come a time when youâre not there anymore. Everyone at one time or another says âno that will never happenâ. Nevers are absolute. The only absolute is demise. So we try to keep that from happening.
Weâre both back in our respective workspaces and plugging away for the next visit. Tentatively for Spring 2026. Our monies are trickling into the savings account for then. That plan worked out very well, and Iâm glad we set that up for our expenses.
You titled this âBack to Realityâ. Not sure thatâs accurate. Our reality is what we make of it, and this too is part of the realism. Youâre real. And youâre really My Pet. Just as Iâm really your Master. So our time together is just as real as our time apart. Just my take on it. As the late Robin Williams titled one of his comedy albums; âReality…what a Concept…â
Wow! That reply really hit home, Master! I definitely wasn’t expecting this kind of reply. But I have to admit it has shed some light on your thoughts and what is going on in your head about us.
I was feeling very insecure about how you enjoyed it and was feeling about this last visit. I feared I had let you down and kept berating myself. Telling myself I should have done more; I should have been better. That I had let you down somehow or another. When I arrived home for the first few days, I did fear that I was going to get a phone call and you telling me this isn’t going to work. Yes, I know Master you have drilled into my head that will not happen. But they do have a tendency to creep back in and haunt me.
But, after reading your reply to my post I am elated! I now know I didn’t screw it up and I did do something right! That you do love me and think about me and you’re in this for the duration of time. I do feel relieved that the thoughts that have been invading space in my head can now dissipate.
I truly do hope we get more time together and more visits. I hope we can see one another again in spring. We both need it so badly! I miss you tremendously when I am here and I just don’t feel whole. Here lately I am losing my want to participate in my local community. There are several reasons why I am feeling this one, one of which is the fact that I am here, and you are there.
And yes Sir, I agree with you. The title does not fit and you’re absolutely right we are most definitely a reality in all ways! You are my Master, and I am PROUDLY your submissive!