Month: November 2016

I believe it takes more effort to write out the word ‘procrastination’ than actually carrying out the act of what you are procrastinating about.

You sit and either physically write out a list or mentally make one in your mind of all the things you wish to accomplish. This list is either to please yourself or to please someone else, or maybe it is both. Now you have your list made but yet you’re still sitting there thinking of the list or maybe where to start first. You feel confident that you will start soon, get something accomplished. But 1,2,3 hours later you’re still sitting there. Maybe even a day or two has past and yet you still have not checked off one single thing on your list.

Now I wonder, do you feel any accomplishment, do you feel pleased with yourself, do you feel you have pleased the one you are doing these things for as well?

To me the answer to these questions would be no, no, no. So now you sit there and feel unaccomplished, you feel disappointment in yourself for not pleasing the other as well as yourself. Does procrastination bring you any kind of reward?

So I ask if you are going to procrastinate, if you use excuses for your procrastination, if you just don’t care enough to please yourself or the other than why even bother making a list. Why even bother looking around at what needs to be done telling yourself, I will accomplish this, not only are you setting yourself up for disappointment but the others that are also involved with the expected accomplishments.

So just wake up every morning and ignore the things around you, do your own thing, worry for you alone, this makes you happy, right?

The people whom try to help and yet you give them the old excuses or promise them ‘I will eventually get to it’ but yet your still sitting there doing your own selfish things. In turn making yourself look, well I’m sure you know. But no worries, right?  You’re happy, right? Why worry about pleasing the others involved, right?

Maybe the procrastinator should think about these things instead of that mental list they know they will not accomplish.

Good luck in your endeavors!

I just went through two horrible days of hell!  I caught a horrible stomach bug that is going around now. And sadly with me being in the medical field I am more apt to catch what is going around. I have been vaccinated against all the big bad diseases and such. But it’s those small everyday buggers that tend to bite me in the ass!

I came home from work feeling just fine. Cooked supper ate supper and I noticed I got full fast while eating dinner but didn’t really think anything of it. Well I just put the rest up and started drinking my nightly wine cooler. Welllll let me tell you!  That little culprit set it off! My stomach started feeling very heavy so I went on to bed thinking that will help. NOT!  The nausea started to slowly creep in. I did fall asleep for a bit. Than BAM!  IT HIT!  I had to jump up and run to the bathroom!  From there it went on all night!  LITERALLY!!!!  About 4:00 am it started coming out of  me from both ends!  I literally thought I was going to die!  Finally the vomiting stopped about 6:00 am I was able to get some sleep on and off between spouts of ugh yes diarrhea! I slept the whole next day. No way was I able to get up. Well finally the next day rolls around and I am feeling slightly human again. Still have some diarrhea but not nearly as bad as before.

I was able to work up enough energy to disinfect my bedroom and bathroom. Well that took me all day but by god I got it done.

Now I am sitting here celebrating the fact that I was able to eat solid food after two days!!!  Wooooohoooooo!  I still feel a bit blah. And my ribs are sore from all the vomiting. But I am very grateful it is over and I am getting better!  I would not wish that on my worst enemy!!!!!

Best of luck to all!  Hope you all stay well!

My boy, I am so very proud of MY boy!

We started off on a much different path. Both of us unsure and playing a role that was not our true selves. My boy was unsettled. I seen my boy struggling with himself. I seen and felt his cry for guidence. So I did what I felt was natural to me and guided my boy. Paved a path for him to discover himself. He is doing wonderfully. I couldn’t be more proud of him than I am now.

Of course like any relationship whether it is kink or vanilla we have had our ups and downs. But we have come out the other side stronger!  I am sure we will still have our ups and downs but that is to be expected. But how else do you build a strong relationship if you don’t have the good with the bad. As well as the universe giving us both a good swift kick in the ass when needed!  ?

We continue to build our relationship, I feel our bond growing stronger every day. My boy is very well versed in this lifestyle, over 30 years he has been in this lifestyle!  Impressive I know!  Myself only about 2 years and no RL experience that is a goal I am working towards with the help of my boy and a few friends. I feel this is who I am, a Dominant as well as kinky. When I discovered this lifestyle I discovered my true self.

Something very special and wonderful happened yesterday!  Something I have felt very strongly towards. Something I didn’t think would ever happen for me because of past experience putting a black cloud over me. But it happen!  And I couldn’t be any happier than I am right now!  Elated! Joyful! Ecstatic! So very proud to annouce I claimed my boy formally yesterday!!!!  ????? He is now formally MINE!  My boy you make me so proud!  Thank you for such a wonderful and precious gift!  I will treasure my gift!  So now I am the most happiest owner of my boy!  We will build our relationship to the most glorious of all!

I have been reading a Fem Dom romance novel and in one of the scenes the Mistress had her submissive build her a queening chair. The chair is described as:

Also the writer put her own twist on it she added a hole in the bench right where his cock would be. With a new toy that she would insert into this hole. The toy was a sort of a fake vagina made to be realistic. It was heated as well as vibrated with suction.

Now you have a description of the chair and all it’s trinkets. As I was reading this scene I pictured me and my boy in the chair together.

I would have my boy laying down on the bench on his stomach his penis deep within the fake vagina. I would tie him down to the bench unable to move, unable to thrust his hips up and down. Than I would climb upon my throne and enjoy the pleasure my boy would bring me with that glorious mouth of his. While I held the remote to the toy torturing my boy as I made the toy vibe and suction slow than fast. Watching as he squirmed. Mmmmm this is a very nice scene I see in my mind.

One day my boy we will play this scene out physically.