Well I am sitting here relaxing at home watching some Netflix. When I got up this morning I was still feeling the pain as well as the lack of sleep. It was all starting to take its toll on me physically and mentally. So I sat here drinking my coffee and just thinking of the past few days events. Thinking to myself ‘you know what self! I’m not going to sit here and wallow in all this self pity! I’m…
Well, my husband and I are getting divorced after 14 years of being together. I’m excited that I will be happier. That my life will lead to bigger and better things. That I will finally feel free to explore what I wish. To be able to do as I please. To not have to worry about answering to someone else! To be able to go out and purchase something for me and not feel guilty about it! I’m excited to…
As I sit here drinking my morning coffee thinking back on the past 14 years of my life all that continuously runs through my mind is ‘I have just had enough’. I have had enough of being ignored. I have had enough of feeling like I’m just being used. I have had enough of not being touched. I have had enough of being made to feel as if I’m just an annoying bother that has to be kept around. I…
I believe it takes more effort to write out the word ‘procrastination’ than actually carrying out the act of what you are procrastinating about. You sit and either physically write out a list or mentally make one in your mind of all the things you wish to accomplish. This list is either to please yourself or to please someone else, or maybe it is both. Now you have your list made but yet you’re still sitting there thinking of the…
Water Shows the Hidden Heart – Enya Lyrics: From the City of Constellations To the wanderer And a Place of Rains He journeys on The City of hesitation and doubt The Island if the house the color of the sea The Plain of Mementoes He journeys on to find his love Th Valley of lost time The City of End and Endlessness The Isle of Revenents He journeys on The City of Solitudes The City of distance from you The…
As everyone knows I am a proud owner of a wonderful sub ‘my boy’! I also run a secret BDSM group on Facebook. I made this group so people may join express themselves freely without worry of judgement. Also to meet other like minded people. A group where all can freely be themselves. And of course naturally you will have subs join this group. Some are strong willed and understand that I am just an administrator. Than there are some…
I just went through two horrible days of hell! I caught a horrible stomach bug that is going around now. And sadly with me being in the medical field I am more apt to catch what is going around. I have been vaccinated against all the big bad diseases and such. But it’s those small everyday buggers that tend to bite me in the ass! I came home from work feeling just fine. Cooked supper ate supper and I noticed…
My boy, I am so very proud of MY boy! We started off on a much different path. Both of us unsure and playing a role that was not our true selves. My boy was unsettled. I seen my boy struggling with himself. I seen and felt his cry for guidence. So I did what I felt was natural to me and guided my boy. Paved a path for him to discover himself. He is doing wonderfully. I couldn’t be…
I have been reading a Fem Dom romance novel and in one of the scenes the Mistress had her submissive build her a queening chair. The chair is described as: Also the writer put her own twist on it she added a hole in the bench right where his cock would be. With a new toy that she would insert into this hole. The toy was a sort of a fake vagina made to be realistic. It was heated as…
My mind is on so many things. My boy, my vehicle, my home just all of lifes happenings right now. I know eventually things work out in the end. It’s the journey you must take to get to the end. But it always seems to come out for the better. So I sit here and I hope my luck will not run out on me as I continuously race to the end of this journey. But then I think, my…